Scribbles of Citrus

Now playing: Yu-Gi-Oh! Master Duel BGM - Menu theme #1 Extended https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8BY05fvh9Q   Hello, it's been a while. I'm going to be a little candid. I've swapped out ADHD for HDMI. It became an in-joke I made up to combat the piles and piles of videos coming in through various social media algorithms and I couldn't stand "ADHD" being said hundreds of times by myself and others in any given week. I've already used it twice here. Fifteen-ish years ago I first heard the term as a descriptor for a family friend, who couldn't sit still, wouldn't stop talking over the top of dialogue in movies, etc etc. He was put in a very negative light because of this and other reasons I can't remember properly. Being of a young impressionable mind, I took this as truth for others in the future associated with said term. In parallel with this, I started to notice my own goings-on, school and home stuff etc. I found it incredibly difficult to f...

 Six years. Damn does time swing by. I can barely remember how things started.  Sometime in 2016-2017, fresh off the heels of surviving the really strange process of helping to create an Unreal Engine spidey game (another story for another time perhaps) I offered to help conceptualise a cool little fan-animated show, with all the things we loved about the character.  From cel-shading, hatch-shading, drawing inspiration from anything and everything that came before, the shows and movies we grew up with, the ideals this character represents, god  the love we have for this character is insane. It's been slow-goings ever since though, at least for me. It was incredibly difficult to focus on this. I struggled a lot. I found myself not keeping up on my side of things like developing character designs for Doc Ock or Shocker, kept hitting walls in how to get the style and gear right, hyperfixating on getting a lot of sky and cloud photos that took an entire year to put toget...

Introductions are hard. I don't know how I feel about Halo as a whole. I guess I'll start by saying I loved the older ones, as most people do. My first exposure was Combat Evolved, at a childhood friend's place on his Xbox, going through the co-op and having fun blasting each other to bits, playing around with what the game had provided us, be it actual enemies or our Marine allies (yes we shot them too, who didn't), trying to fit the Warthog into caves Bungie clearly built for foot traffic only, and generally having the best multiplayer fun I've ever had on a tiny CRT telly. I don't remember much about the story back when I first played it, and Halo 2 even less so. To be honest, it wasn't really until Halo 3 launched that I went back and paid attention to the narrative, and got to enjoy the games all over again. I don't think I will ever be able to replicate the feelings I had while playing Halo locally, be it 1, 2, 3, or Reach with my friends and famil...

now playing  https://soundcloud.com/acadiacollective/modus-antiscape-our-destination It's difficult to figure out what to type once I'm actually on here. Still trying. One day it will become more automatic and less pushing-to-do-it. I've put a 45 minute timer for the Twitter app and I seem to go over that limit. Some days I don't. Good progress? I guess we'll see. I am moving houses again. Not because the last place was shit (although I do have fears the ground will fall right under me) but it has done wonders for my mind and body. Gone are the days of constant dust up the nose, thanks in part to regular vacuuming and stuff. I missed that, even if there wasn't anything obvious stopping me from doing so. Games I've been playing lately Marvel Snap Ghost Recon Breakpoint (remembered that Splinter Cell is turning 20 this year, could play those games but they aren't as expansive or even on PS4) Fortnite (not so much lately I've hit 100 and don't reall...

  I've started this blog because I feel like I need to. I need to have a space free of techbros and scheme-pushing nutjobs. This feels like the safest space for me to write (other than a pen and paper). I feel anxious and a little bit sick, but I'm hoping I can get used to this new place and it'll fade away. AI generated art is here, whether I like it or not (I don't). The sites I use to upload art allow those aberrations to grow like a cancer and I can't be a part of that. So I'm here now. I want this place to be the primary space where I can upload things without the fear of being obscured by a pandemic of algorithmically driven creations. So here's to a fresh start I guess?